More Mindful Meltdowns

Have you noticed that mindfulness helps you deal with strong emotions?   Occasionally in the last couple of months I have been overwhelmed with a strong unpleasant emotion……and I have to say initially disappointed that mindfulness didn’t help me to AVOID feeling that bad!!!

So the strength of the emotion is still there…..but somehow all of that mindfulness practice helps me to observe it, to go with it, to express it ( privately), to let the tears out, to label it, to empathise with it, to reduce how much analysing and thoughts spin around in my head about it AND to do something with that emotional energy  (guided meditation, walk or ride).

And even though I am ALWAYS disappointed initially to have even felt that bad…..I feel cleaner / clearer afterwards….I have thought more constructively and said less so that the bad feeling seems over and done with alot quicker than the old days when I would hang on to it and fight it!

It’s a small step forward but a significant one…..with so much more growing ahead!

Not So Mindful Mayhem!

I wish I could say the reason why I haven’t written a blog for so long was because I was being so mindful!!  But instead is was because of a big trip to Western Australia, school holidays, returning to work and kids returning to school and lately because my partner has been away….sigh!

I found my meditation sessions turned into….’I’ll just lie down to meditate’ and then I would snooze!  Maybe the naps were much needed but I have missed the clarity and sense of being recharged when I meditate!  The other day returning to meditate was like returning home…..but I have still found it hard to get back into the rhythm of daily meditating!

Having said all that….daily mindfulness kept me calmer and saner I am sure!  Sometimes it would be noticing my surroundings, sometimes really mindfully absorbing my cup of tea…..sometimes a mindful hug, a yummy peach, an interesting bird, or mentally appreciating my children and how fast they are growing up!

Sometimes being mindful was easy….like snorkelling or body surfing or climbing to the top of a lighthouse or feeling the wind in your hair on a ferry!  Sometimes it was really difficult like when the kids are fighting or grumbling or when it’s too hot…..still it is an essential part of my life now and I am glad I had some of those strategies to get me through the last few weeks!

Not So Mindful Monday!!

I was walking along with my kids one Monday evening and with a jolt out of my inner ramblings I realised the river had flowed the day before!!    We had celebrated the rain and hoped the river would flow…..but somehow we had ended up relishing a wet, cool day at home and not gone anywhere!

Immediately I began internally beating myself up….how could I  NOT have noticed the weather outside, how could we have missed such a momentous occasion here in the desert…..how could I have been so UNmindful!!!

And so the inner harsh ramblings continued as my kids explored this fascinating, moist environment and only once I got to the top of the hill and looked out over the range and saw a stunning sunset spiking through clouds  was I able to wake up!  Here I am beating myself up about NOT being mindful yesterday and I am MISSING a chance to be mindful right here right now!!!!

Deep breath, relax the shoulders, take in the sunset, the sound of cicadas, the birds, be grateful to be right here right now, with my kids and this glorious landscape……….and …we’ll see the river run next time!!!!